Sunday, April 19, 2015

Some Things - Hoping I No Longer Chance

I have cut out and marked a lot in today's New York Times Sunday paper.
I pass on this paper and some will wonder
what did I cut out ?
so please forgive me :)

"I don't think people's weaknesses are bad at all.
We all have them.
I have tons and I'm not going to discredit you if you have them,
but I think that not being aware of them
is dangerous."     Alexa von Tobel

This one can no longer take a chance
with high risk people

Took me a long time to discover
guess I am a slow learner or try until I am exhausted
and in a downward cycle.

The loving and kind
are best for me     (thank you www for these words)
along with my solitary lifestyle.

I wonder
how many of us
are aware of our weaknesses?

an image I took one year ago today

all day rain is going on

Thursday, April 16, 2015

Reflections and Death

I like to use the Togo bells that belong to my son,
the sound seems to still and calm me before I begin to eat.

Now I am using a music bowl that he brought to me
saying "the sound last longer and you might like this bowl."
I do like it....

A night of storms, still raining
much prayer, many tears, reflection and thoughts of past family times.

My younger sister passed away about 6 years ago
and my younger brother passed away 2 days ago.

Grandparents, parents and sister nnd brother
no longer here
I stand alone
for my children
as the oldest in our family.
Miss so many special friends
in my past.

I search for words to share
and seem to find none
until I open several of my books

"Stillness blankets me
cushions me against my own
sharp edges
wraps me in her protective shawl
keeps my tender heart
from ripping
on the thorns
of the world"          Judith Prest

May I live this day

Compassionate of heart,
Clear in word,
Gracious in awareness,
Courageous in thought,
Generous in Love                    John O'Donohue

Tuesday, April 14, 2015

10 years ago today, butterflies and words from the youngest

10 years ago today
Jamie, me, Caitlin and Jimmy - hardly recognised him with the long hair :)
Caity - 3---Jamie, early 30,s---Jimmy, early 40's
and this one
Times flies.......

Yesterday, first butterflies
could not capture their full beauty

Posted by son-in law.

"While watching soccer game
my youngest granddaughter sitting next to him
and comments
- your hair is really thin
and there's also a lot of white in it
I Love you"

All day rain
and all is growing at a rapid speed.
Everything is beautiful at this time.

Monday, April 13, 2015

Wonderful Evening

Up to the last minute
did not know if I could go to the special restaurant
Rolf and Daughters in Nashville
with 3 of my children.
I did
and so glad
to see where Sarah the chef is working.
A wonderful meal
and a wonderful chauffeur
my son is being so attentive
to his mama.

Sharing some images from last night

also sharing a wonderful nature shot
of my youngest granddaughter.

Saturday, April 11, 2015

New Beginnings

Grass cut the first time 4 days ago
Humming birds have returned, 2 at feeder last night at dusk,
opening door slowly I tried to get an image,
not too good and they are so skinny.
Most of my old friends have returned
but some did not.
and my favorite Oak Leaf Hydrangea
Every year I purchase another rose bush and they do not survive by the edge of the woods
so I will plant no more.  But I love roses...

Yes, old friends emerging, a lot yet to surface the earth  and might add so are the weeds.
A lot of grooming done in the past 5 years will be done less this year and onward.

One who helped some recently, needed work and now seems I cannot reach him.
A repeat of many times over the years.
Not upset this time, disappointed but the way it is.

I hear my son's words
it really does not matter
just enjoy this wonderful peaceful spot
you call home.

So another reminder too

Thursday, April 9, 2015

Invocation to the Guardian

I read this poem a few years ago
and copied it.
It speaks to me in a special way
especially as time goes by....

Invocation to the Guardian

You who were with me before I was born,
dark shining on dark,
be with me now.
You who will stay with me after I die,
light traveling on light,
Be with me now.

You who are nameless
in the marketplace of of ten thousand things,
how shall I call you?
You who are invisible between the stars,
how shall I see you?

You who nurture me with silent wisdom,
speak to me now.
I am listening beyond the sounds of the night,
I am looking beyond the sights of day.
You who fill the infinite void,
travel small on my shoulder now,
show me the way.

"Doors to the Universe" by Dolores Stewart
shared with her permission.

Friday, April 3, 2015

Checking In

Up checking emails
cup of warm water
and back stretch.

Email received
special one has landed in California :)

Just rinsed 2 quarts of beautiful ripe strawberries
in vinegar and water.   Now they will keep for a few days.
Now I can go back to sleep
for a few hours
with a smile in my heart...

Do all mother's still think of their grown children
as young children
when they arrive home over the years.

I do...